last glass...dusty buckets...parched e-lips...sponge...drip...drop
2002-11-21 - 11:22 p.m.: tom & jerry i honestly can't remember the last time i felt sooooo good about every single element of my life at the same time. EVERYTHING. it's a little frightening, almost, the way that pure happiness immobilizes you... it takes away that little sting in your ass that makes you want to move forward... that makes you want to shut your eyes and just GO. i don't want to GO right now... i want to stay right here with my head in the clouds and my eyes level with the stars, doing nothing but staring and smiling. is this how people stop growing? (or is this "fear of not growing" the thumbtack on my child-size seat of happiness that will, if i condescend, prick me hard enough to set me off running again?) questions are THE strings keeping me tied up in knots above the comfort that i'd otherwise drown in. should i be thankful? in my current state, i'm inclined to say "yes!" dammit... i'm thankful for EVERYTHING! today, i'm thankful for: waking up to the smell of my favorite skin BUT...i would really like to have fur, just for a day. the silky kind, that would make you want to pet yourself all day long. though, perhaps not feeling free to do this petting in public would make me hate it. i'd rather find out than guess. ummm... this is just going downhill... i'll kindly keep the rest of tonight's musings to myself. 'night! |