2003-05-19 - 3:43 p.m.: sunblock

i'm sizzled... outside and in. played like shit this weekend... felt like i was doing everything wrong and too slow... hotly dizzy and dragging... i don't know why or what that means for the future, but right now i really don't care. i'm going to keep postponing the disappointment until it goes away. works every time.

but still i feel like i'm not blinking hard enough.

i wish i had something more lovely to say, but i don't. i'm really just tired and a little bit sad.

but not really.

it's more like a brief vacation from curious/happy.

i will see you again tomorrow, more clearly.

byeeeeeeeeee

inward...outward