2003-05-30 - 11:04 p.m.: poison

so my brother's in town with his girlfriend, unexpectedly, and invites me to go bowling. sure! sounds like fun! so we bowl... have a great time, la dee dah... then he asks if he can come back to see my apartment.. never been there before. sure! i know it's a little messy.. but figure he's been in college, he can handle it.

get back, there's an eviction notice on my door. undeserved, they cashed my rent check two weeks ago. fuck. go inside, hard rock blaring from the stereo i left on for woodrow, bras and thongs hanging from chairs and end-tables, drying from yesterday's laundry. even better. sit down, my one-hitter's lying on the table with the lighter next to it. "incense?" asks my brother. no. he say's it's okay, that our parents probably did a lot more... but the damage is done. he thinks i'm an irresponsible flop-house druggie. i know it. i'm just glad he didn't hop on my computer and find all the porn.

you think i'm kidding?

*sigh*

inward...outward