2003-05-29 - 10:12 p.m.: jolt

when i was very little, i found out that if i rubbed the top of my head back and forth really fast against this red blanket on my bed, i could make sparks fly out of the material. i remember making a nightly habit of it... making sparks until i got dizzy and had to stop. i remember thinking that it turned out to be a really good way to fall asleep quickly. i wonder how i forgot all that, and what made me remember? (i also wonder how many drugs my parents must have done to make me so weird...)

also: trying to form an opinion out of ideas is like tryig to make a perfect ball with crumbly play-doh.

inward...outward