2002-01-30 - 10:19 p.m.: iced thai coffee

an evening of treasure-hunting with ladies' man luscious, who made trying on old sweaters look sexy. :) sifting through other peoples' cast-aways invites reflection. how would i feel if i happened to run across some "old thing" of mine that i had, at one point, decided not to need? i think i would feel awful. it was hard to look at stuffed animals and hand-knit blankets and badly-painted landscapes. these were things that should have been saved by someone. anyone. they were like orphans too old to look new, too young to not care, too soft to take care of themselves. and so, i now have a new-old puppy named "thai." his ears are floppy, he has a red rubber collar and he loves to be held.

in other news, i've decided that sitting and waiting for my ghosts to come to life is silly. i'm going to introduce myself like a good neighbor. i'm not the brownie-baking, cup-of-sugar type of citizen, but hell--at least i'll know who to thank for the bass rhythms that let me dance while washing dishes. so... this is my current grand experiment. i'll let you know how it goes.

inward...outward